My daughter keeps telling me that I should write something to put up here . She said it has helped her get past the pain she feels inside . Im not very good at that kind of thing. But I promised her that I would write something so no quick witted rhymes just me telling you how it feels.
He ended his life in the blink of an eye . And he will never know exactly how devastating it was to all that he left behind. He left with no reason no answers just questions. Why did you do this? What were you thinking? How are we supposed to go on without you?? And how do you explain this to your children?
He was a good man , a great father , a wonderful friend. He promised us all that he would never leave us and yet he did . It was his choice, no one took him from us , he did!
I am lost without him, I miss him more than anyone could ever know and I am still so angry because he left us alone to go on without him. I feel like a robot going through the motions now. No life left just emotionless going through time. The emptiness inside is more than I can bare so I turn it off. No music… its to hard to listen to…. everything reminds me of him. To many tears …sleepless nights…..images of him …..
We cut that tree down thinking it would help….it sits there on the ground …..felled as he was and I don’t have the strength to remove it. So it sits there as another reminder of what he did. Does the pain ever leave? And if it does.. does the memory of him go with it? How do we do this? We had plans ….to many to count. What about those? How do we do those now? How do we move on? And here is the biggest question. How do you say goodbye to your soul mate, your life, your everything?
I miss you Babe more than anything , And it hurts so bad, I wish that you would come back to us , We need you!!! We cant do this without you ! YOU PROMISED!!